Sara

I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like. And right now there's a steel knife In my windpipe, I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight. As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight, high of a love drunk from the hate. It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it, the more that I suffer I sufficate, and right before I’m about to drown she resuscitates me. She fucking hates me and I love it. Wait Where you going? I'm leaving you! No you ain't, Come back! We're running right back, here we go again it's so insane cause when it's going good It's going great, I'm Superman with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane. But when it's bad It's awful, I feel so ashamed I snap, who's that dude? I don't even know his name! I laid hands on her I'll never stoop so low again, I guess I don't know my own strength. You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe, when you're with them you meet and neither one of you even know what hit them. Got that warm fuzzy feeling, yeah them chills used to get them. Now you're getting fucking sick of looking at them, you swore you've never hit them, never do nothing to hurt them. Now you're in each other's face spewing venom and these words when you spit them, you push, pull each other's hair, scratch, claw, bit them, throw them down, pin them. So lost in the moments when you're in them it's the rage that took over, it controls you both. So they say it's best to go your separate ways, guess that they don't know you cause today that was yesterday, yesterday is over It's a different day. Sound like broken records playin' over but you promised her next time you'll show restraint, you don't get another chance, life is no Nintendo game. But you lied again, now you get to watch her leave out the window, guess that's why they call it window pane. Now I know we said things did things that we didn't mean, and we fall back Into the same patterns, same routine, but your temper's just as bad as mine is. You're the same as me but when it comes to love you're just as blinded, baby please come back it wasn't you baby it was me. Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems, maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano. All I know is I love you too much to walk away though, come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk, don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk? Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fist at the dry wall. Next time, there will be no next time. I apologize even though I know it's lies I'm tired of the games I just want her back. I know I'm a liar. If she ever tries to fucking leave again I'mma tie her to the bed And set this house on fire! Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, but that's alright because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry, but that's alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.